3rd & 4th Nights

just quick update...2 nites together....

I wasn’t able at all to write yesterday nite....so im writing now...

I was drunk and stoned.....not bad....i feel a bit shit 2day....but u know that always...

spent the whole day working!! amazing!! at home...concentrated.... quite slow but i did it..

imagine i turned down an invitation from M to go 4 coffee.... one year ago i would be there in seconds!!

the fact that i was going to see her at the party, made me have a target!

need 2 give her a nickname... the one i’m again for In the Mood for Love!! :)))

so i’ll call her “G”, cause she’s gorgeous..... or because i want badly to discover her “G Spot”......hahaha

very good moods yesterday.... and today so far...

The party wasn’t bad.... We talked together quite enough...
She seems so nice with me, she looks at me in an ecstatic way, she touches me alot...body language...
I’m scared...how many times that happened before? :)))
and if the result is once again, “You are a nice guy”??? or in greek-english translation: “You’re a good boy”...

if it happens, u know what 2 do: stop any effort...run away...

I came a conclusion lately, that women don’t want nice guys....they need just assholes!

and i don’t mind now playing it as an asshole 4 a while...not 4 them...just for me, 2 check how far i can go...if i can stop being in my world!!

so yesterday, after talking she went with her Italian friend 2 check the dance floor for 5 minutes! “Dont go we re coming back...we have out stuff here...”

i left with Kostas talking, haven’t seen him 4 ages....and they came back after 30 minutes or so....
i did say it 2 her.... and i left with Stav 4 dancing....

and i met this crazy Polish girl, flirting with me for a while...quite huge....haha...and her spanich friend...at the end i ask he if she;s lesbian....xoxoxo...dont remember the answer,,,,i remember saying that I’m lesbian!!
was drunk again...

when i went back 4 another drink, “G” was talking with somene else...didn;t bother her....just said i;m going back 2 dance...she grabbed my hand, asking if im coming back...i said in a while...or if she wants come over there...

after a while, went back again, she was already gone....she told Stav she was quite drunk and had 2 go.......with a couple of drinks only???? or from my beauty....xaxaxa

had a splif outside with Kostas,,,,that’s it....
we went to Bazaar and had house music....perferct... iwas dancing in my world...

Anna was there too...and when i left, Maria, who i didn’t remember being introduced in the party stopped me to say 2 me goodnite...!!!

we went 2 get our coats, and then we went back in again,....talked to Maria...or she was talking, cause was hard 2 me talk, but dance.....stoned man!!

2 day i’ve been thinking G all day.....worked a bit....
had lunch with Stav, had coffee and dinner with Theo...and Zog....nice girl...reminds me of Mel...but nothing more....

thinking G all day... what she was telling me...

we talked about kids...she said in 3 years time she would like 2 have one....me don’t want now...dont’ know if want in general..
she asked me if we’re thinking with B to have...yep...we were thinking with Betty maybe in 2 or 3 years...

and then G said 2 me........”Let’s have a kid Together in 3 years”!!! and i said what? 2 be together mums?????:)))

No she said: “me the mother, you the father”!!!

Please someone explain 2 me what does it mean? Why someone will say something like that 2 you?
she wasn;t joking though....was she flirting??

Please i need an anwser....


Good nite and good luck!!

03:32:56, 04/02/07, Brussels