First Night

today i started keeping my personal diary...

just a bullshit thing to remind myself of the things i have to do...

just to read it when i’ll be in better moods and laugh with myself.

Blow up is on tv....dubbed in French... :))

just finished watching the Krifi goiteia ton arsenikon...

wanna make a greek movie....

a movie not to deal again with the sexual habbits and problems of greeks...

Bus 29 is my new english one....need time to think and relax and write..

have to make myseff work in this f**king IT job for few months and get some moeny...

today i spend almost a day in work, almost 9 months since my Big Break....

hate it...but was nice working there... at least didnt have to play seek and hide, if i was working from home...

i just decided that if i want to keep this stupid piece of diary, i need to put in a blog....
nobody would be interested in this shit....but it;ll make myself feeling better..

don’t enjoy these blues any more... i dont remember myself before grining all the time...maybe it’s my crisis...

there’s not a bloody language spelling in appleworks??? apple sucks...apple is great....

yesterday i met her...didn’t remember her.... have seen her once, more than 2 years ago...
we were very close, like soul mates...even 4 few hours in a networking bar...

i was married then,,,:))))

but yesterday, was a surprise....i loved looking at her.... talking....talking.....at least i’m talking alot nowdays...
and i say what i fucking feel to say... without thinking what the others would say..

im so bored listen all the crap from all these scrappy people... Hellooooo, u stupids!

yes.... i felt somthing that u know is more than something... for her...

ohnoo... don’t want to do it again...to myself... my brother is right.... everyone around me is right...i will do again the wrong thing....fell again for someone....
and i said no dude... i’m not....it’s my 3rd priority now..
bullshit...

it’s not...it’s always the first, even trying to suppress it...:)) but that’s me at the end,,,

maybe i can’t see the picture very clear...but at least i fucking know when i feel for....

nevermind....tomorrow i’ll write more.... i may see her soon... maybe not... maybe see her and nothing trigger me anymore....maybe...

dreaming of getting some cash and then May comes and go in the island for 3 months....lying there alone and not alone.... nothing else...and writing a bit the new script...and then who knows...

my brains may start again...

ok one last fag and im off to my night dreaming...

Blow up is a brilliant film....u malakas must watch it....

i like this silence in this boring city...everyone disappears from 10 at night...

it’s like living in a big empty forest...

2morrow everyone has to get up early to make money, to run the career, to serve the kids, to make kids, to make problems, to find problems, to buy solutions, to eat, to eat, to have a social drink, to flirt, to eat again, to chat a bit, to eat, and then to fuck off...hahahaha...and don;t forget the kids are sleeping darling we can’t push it 2nite...have an early meeting 2morrow...at the weekend will go all together shopping, and shopping and shopping....and of course to the contryside... where is the beach????

and the singles are more singles, because career is more than a career, and a bloody job in a bloody company that not belong to us , is at the end our company, our job to make it bigger...so no fucking 2nite babe,,,,,maybe u r not the one that i’ll make kids with u...no security...

ta leme moulara!

02:01:56, 01/02/07, Brussels